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It’s Amazing

how easily bonds are broken.

Be it over a boy, separation, or some petty fight, some friendship bonds break easily. 

I never realized before, but I’m starting to now. 

It’s almost as if this past week has shown me who my true friends are. The ones that are always there for me, who never make it sound like a chore to hang out. 

And who my enemies are.

Those who turn anything and everything into a fight, and can’t admit that they are wrong.

Those who don’t make any effort to continue a friendship, and yet, get mad when they aren’t included.

Those who choose their boyfriends over friends that they’ve known for years before. 

In the past few days, I’ve spent more time with friends who 1. I’ve known since high school, 2. I’ve known for a few years and 3. I’ve only known for 4 days.

In these past few days, I’ve had more fun with those people then I have had in a long time.

Today, I was raging at some drama that happened earlier. 

The friend that I’ve known for a few years was involved, but ultimately decided that it was me she wanted to side with. (the drama is a long drawn out story that I will perhaps update at a later time.) 

She and I were still pretty pissed off when we got to the friend that I’ve known since high school’s house. He and the other friend who I’ve only known for a few days cheered us up in a heartbeat. They made us forget that we were angry, and personally ( I can’t speak for my other friend) I felt a lot better. I forgot how angry I was at the person who pissed me off, and I was able to have one of the best nights ever. 

I really value all of my friendships, but it’s people like these who make being friends with them SO easy, that it’s almost preferable to those friendships where you have to work hard in order to last. 

So even though those people whom I mentioned don’t have a tumblr, I would like to thank those 3 for being the best friends I could have ever asked for. :) 

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death

it seems like such a simple concept. and yet, it’s one of the most complicated most hurtful things that could possibly happen.

My grandma passed away on Wednesday. The day after Valentines day. I just, never even got to say goodbye. I know it’s not my fault or anything, she had been sick for awhile, but it was just so sudden.

And now, all i can think about is how I was to damn busy to call them on Valentines day to wish them a Happy valentines day, only to call the morning after, and at that time, my grandma had already been in the hospital.

And the last thing I heard her say to me is how she loved me. But we were on the phone saying goodbye, and I hung up right as she told me that she loved me. I never said it back to her. And I think that that is something I am going to regret for the rest of my life.

This is exactly why I didn’t want to go away for college. I didn’t want to be away in case something like this happened. These thoughts just keep running through my mind. “Why didn’t I call her back to tell her I love her? Why couldn’t she have held on till I came home in March? Why didn’t I get to say goodbye to her one last time?”

I miss her so god damned much. I was really close to her, and I just can’t believe that she’s actually gone.

It’s like there’s a hole in my heart, and I don’t know how to fix it. Every time I think I’ve finally stopped crying, it starts up again 10 times worse. I just don’t know how to make myself feel better.

I understand that feeling shitty is part of the whole “mourning” process, but it doesn’t make it any easier.

Right now, it feels as if I’m going to be this depressed for the rest of my life.

I just want my grandma back. Even if it were only one more day. I just want one more day to tell her I love her. One more day. It’s not a lot to ask, but it’s something that will never happen, and I know that.

I didn’t mean for this to turn into a pity rant, but I thought maybe this would help me feel better.

It really didn’t.

If anything, I’m crying more now that all of these feelings are re-surfacing.

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

That moment

when you realize that the bond you made with the friends you made in high school is not as strong as it used to be.

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Again with the reposting not working! Copy+pasted this from someone.

  1. Guilty pleasure
  2. Something that inspires you
  3. What you imagine death to be like
  4. What is good and what is evil?
  5. Five things you want to see change
  6. Six secrets
  7. An activity you find fun and an activity you dislike
  8. A dream you had this past week described in detail
  9. Five things you are not proud of
  10. Five things you are proud of
  11. A habit you can’t stop
  12. Favorite picture ever taken of yourself
  13. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
  14. Something that you want to do within the next five years
  15. Your favorite songs right now and why you like them
  16. What you want to remembered for
  17. A picture that makes you feel
  18. Five websites you visit daily
  19. How do you think people see you? Be negative and positive
  20. A passage from a book that has touched you
  21. Something you would do if you knew you wouldn’t fail
  22. Your definition of love
  23. Your definition of the meaning of life
  24. Your definition of happiness
  25. What you live for